Dreamt F visited for a talk

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Yesterday we went to the farmers market and got apples, a blobby zucchini, honey, a red pepper, green beans, carrots, onions, turnips, a wee kabocha squash, leeks, and mushrooms.

I dampened the next panel of purple canvas and P helped try to pull it back on grain, with limited success. I ironed it dry, pulling it straighter, which may have helped more. I packed up the chair seat pattern.

I did clip out the circles on the raised herringbone embroidery, and replaced them with a much flatter stitch evoking fireflies. I moved the hoop, and embroidered a St Birgitta border I am quite proud of. Crown of Renewal continues well, though with a CN for child abuse. The rogue still kicks ass. The loose threads from all the other books are slowly getting worked into the final tapestry.

Lunch was good; (CN disordered eating) I overserved but was able to exert appropriate stopping willpower before overeating. As it gets darker and my anxiety gets worse that can sometimes be an issue; competing anxieties about eating feeling physically unpleasant but also worrying it will get worse if I continue/take too long but also worrying that if I don’t eat enough I’ll lose weight and that will feel worse all the time, not just at mealtimes, so I better eat as much as I can as quickly as possible before it feels too bad to continue. It’s not great. If I can slow down, stop before it feels bad, and eat bigger snacks to compensate, life is better, but it’s hard to remember that in the moment. Small victory is small but still a victory. (/CN)

Crossword, then P tested out a method for cooking meat without beefing the whole house: slow cooker on the porch. It worked fairly well, so maybe he’ll be able to clear the chest freezer this year before the next beef draft in the spring.

Dinner was good, watched some Elementary, snack, sleep.